just a short one cos i needa spill things out. argh, i dont know why but the guilt of xxxx is haunting me down like mad right now. it's to the point whereby nothing can get it off my mind. i cant even eat properly now. and even while studying, it'll just haunt me and now i can't focus properly. argh, i dont know. i think it's cos i've nvr nvr nvr ever imagined myself to do something so terrible. i feel like a total bitch right now ya know. sigh i just feel so terrible. & i think i can't sleep properly cos of this. but it's been like a week or so, since it happened? i dont know why i suddenly thought of it and i just cant get it off my mind! oh man im so screwed. sigh.

but then again, thinking of the nightmare that i may face makes me feel like it was probably the right thing to do, whatever the outcome will be.
okay, that may be a consolation for me. a teeny weeny consolation.
still, arghhhhhhh.